It's been a while, hasn't it? The following post seems a bit more freaky (maybe it's just me) if you were to read this post about my previous limbo state. Wow, a lot has changed since I last posted here. I've just finished reading some of my older posts and realized that things are dramatically different around here now. You see, shortly after that post my son decided he wanted nothing more to do with us, thanks to the girlfriend from hell, he moved in with my father and stepmother who proceeded to cut him off from us in every way possible. We haven't spoken to him since May 20, 2011. Over a year and we've missed his birthday and holidays that we'll never get back. Shortly after his departure my MIL died, my former best friend married and I've never spoken to either again.
That is the short story. The long story has been roughly a year of trying to get over having my child break my heart and trying to somehow pull my marriage back together. Life has revolved around the husband and the girls, now ages 17 and 8. Since my son's departure my husband and I focus mainly on the girls and improving their existence since both had taken a back seat to the melodrama of my son and his girlfriend. We attended concerts, had holidays, went to ball games and reconnected with my husband's family and some of my family who had been M.I.A. for quite a while. My mother is still vicious, manipulative, and thankfully absent from our lives and now my sister, father, and stepmother have followed her exit as well.
My life was smoothing out.
A few months ago I hooked up with my cousin that I haven't spoken to in roughly 20 years. No falling out, no ill will, he just got the hell out of dodge with his wife and child and made a life for them far away from here. He lives in Portland, OR. I've lived in California most of my life, well, except for those 2 years I spent in Colorado. I don't dig California nearly as much as I used to and God knows with my family as crazy as they are I've wanted to create my own Witness Relocation Program more times than I can count.
Guess what happens when you put those kinds of thoughts out there? Life has a funny way of bringing you things... Now I have to decide how good those things may or may not be. My cousin retired doing the same work my husband does now, which is strange because it's not a common kind of job. On the phone last week he tells me he can get my husband a job in Portland "easy." All I have to do is get him a resume and he'll "float it around" up there and see what comes up.
Me:
Followed by:
That is the short story. The long story has been roughly a year of trying to get over having my child break my heart and trying to somehow pull my marriage back together. Life has revolved around the husband and the girls, now ages 17 and 8. Since my son's departure my husband and I focus mainly on the girls and improving their existence since both had taken a back seat to the melodrama of my son and his girlfriend. We attended concerts, had holidays, went to ball games and reconnected with my husband's family and some of my family who had been M.I.A. for quite a while. My mother is still vicious, manipulative, and thankfully absent from our lives and now my sister, father, and stepmother have followed her exit as well.
My life was smoothing out.
A few months ago I hooked up with my cousin that I haven't spoken to in roughly 20 years. No falling out, no ill will, he just got the hell out of dodge with his wife and child and made a life for them far away from here. He lives in Portland, OR. I've lived in California most of my life, well, except for those 2 years I spent in Colorado. I don't dig California nearly as much as I used to and God knows with my family as crazy as they are I've wanted to create my own Witness Relocation Program more times than I can count.
Guess what happens when you put those kinds of thoughts out there? Life has a funny way of bringing you things... Now I have to decide how good those things may or may not be. My cousin retired doing the same work my husband does now, which is strange because it's not a common kind of job. On the phone last week he tells me he can get my husband a job in Portland "easy." All I have to do is get him a resume and he'll "float it around" up there and see what comes up.
Me:
Followed by:
The second I mentioned it to my husband he clamped down on it like a drowning man on a life preserver. Ever since then it's been a nonstop whirlwind of researching Portland (hubs) and stress bordering on panic of what we are supposed to do with this house (me). I had just settled in with the thought that we are here for the long-term. Escape was a pretty fantasy to entertain me in those ugly moments when I got some sort of communication from one of my crazy relatives. I've modified this mortgage, the house is still underwater value-wise so selling isn't an option... rent it? What all is that going to entail? And, this is my oldest daughter's senior year of high school.
All those things whirling around and I haven't even given my cousin the resume yet. It's almost funny. Almost.
All those things whirling around and I haven't even given my cousin the resume yet. It's almost funny. Almost.
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Welcome back! I've missed "us"!
I'm glad ya'll decided to start posting again. I was almost done reading every thing and decided I better start rationing my reading. Now,I don't have to!
I've missed this too!!!! I'm glad we started back up again!!!! :D
I am now asking myself how the fuck did I think Portland and Seattle were adjoining?
Yes. I am glad we are back!
Celeste - I must admit to having some of that confusion myself. Supposedly it rains a lot in the winter, guess what? Here I am stuck in NONSTOP FUCKING GRAY CLOUDBANK for the ENTIRE winter with NO RAIN. Rain would be a welcome RELIEF.
I have no idea where that rant came from. I'm apparently getting "potential move Tourette's" or something.
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